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Sunday, March 09, 2008

title:A dream, of you?

Weekends are always so boring! Nothing much going on in my life now, but I am damn super proud of my brother, he scored like 4As & 1B for 'A' levels. BLOODY smart. He can go almost anywhere he wants and well he's gonna apply scholarship too! Well it sort of got me thinking hard. I have to make it to university too. I have to continue this blood line of my familys' haha, my sis is in NUS and my bro is gonna go somewhere too. In a way, I got motivated. But in another way, I got brought down. I'm gonna go to SP & I'm gonna try to fight my way top, and be one of the 'high percentage' students and go to NUS! RARH! Congratulations to Jessica san also for aiming your results that you've wanted. See a lil faith and believeing in yourself works eh.

Went to the IT fair with samantha yesterday, hoping to see lots of people we knew. I didnt see any though. Its kinda horrible there. The disgusting lot of crowd of people. lols. People were Jaywalking all around suntec city. Well we jaywalked too. Things are cheap at the IT fair, but I really suggest if you're gonna get a camera, get a canon ixus & if you're gonna get an MP3 get an ipod. Poddies dont spoil easily unlike other MP3s. & I am most prolly gonna get an apple mac book. Gonna buy it in school, cause its gonna be alot cheaper!

わたしはあなたにとてもあいしてる。こころがほんとうにいたい。２ねん５がつまで。
Had a horrible dream yesterday night, mm I dunno whether its the after effect of eating spagetti & watching sakura wars. lols. I dreamt of you. Since a really really long time, I didnt. I dreamt that I was holding you tightly & closely, crying. That feeling is reallyreally scary, its like so long and I havent gotten over you yet. Everything was crushed when I woke up in the late afternoon. It was all just a stupid freaking dream. You smiled to me in my dreams, its like there's a major hole in my heart now. I want you to fill that hole up. I cant seem to get over you, seriously.

How I wish that 2 years ago, I didnt know you.
How I wish I didnt get the chance to meet you.
How I wish you, how I wish you were mine.
How I wish we could watch cool gorey movies together.
How I wish we could sit together watching dvds & eating crap.
How I wish there was always you to look behind my back.
How I wish there is you to eat with me & to accompany me when I am lonely.
How I wish there is you for me to care for.
How I wish I could buy gucci for you.
How I wish I can just be happy with my life. With you, or just without you.

Maybe you know who you really are, or not, or whatever. Life isnt going well for me. The least is I have great friends with me, I have huiqi to care for me. I have samantha to look behind my back. I have janice to be with me & watch cool gorey movies. I have adeline to be there to eat with me & be with me when I am lonely.I have my sister cally & linda, I have my Jap classmates, I have my real supportive family. I wanna feel your presence, seriously. But it's impossible. Seriously, If you were mine, I wouldnt mind giving all my gucci to you.

Been very bored, so I did a new drawing.

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